a friend of mine is pregnant and her boyfriend is not supportive. when i was talking her tonight this poem popped in my head, i don't know why.
when we have our baby.
i can't do this by myself, do you see. so you need ti think twice before you leave. don't want to have to call you on the phone. don't want to be hurting and all alone.
i want you to see everything that happens. i want you to time every contraction. i want you to massage my feet when they swell. i need you to be strong when i don't feel well.
i know i can be mean and i do act tough. but i know doing this by myself will be too rough. i know i'm not the sweetest, and i can act a litle crazy. but your ass better be there, cause i'm having your baby.
see my girls can't fill in this time, it just aint right. plus they were not there to enjoy that night. so let me tell you now what i expect. i want you to be a real dad i don't need no damn check.
you may not like what i say, but this is from my heart. this had to be said, so i thought i would start. just think of all the joy and fun we can have. but also know i will not hesitate to kick your ass.
my baby needs a man to be his father. so if your feeling like a little boy don't even bother. so get your mind right, cause i aint playing no games. because if you mess up i will not take the blame.
i hope your ready, and pretty sure of yourself. because doing my child wrong will be bad for your health. i'm sure you will do right, by now you should know i'm crazy. so this is what i need from you when we have our baby.
i know i little corny right but it was in my head and i had to get it out.
well i am getting ready for the new year, hoping this year will be smoother than last, i trust in god that it will. my daughter's birthday is new year's day. we got her some clothes and shoes and a gift certificate for build a bear workshop, she loves that place. i do too. i think i'm getting a cold, well let me stop faking i know i have a cold i just don't want one. i started taking something for it yesterday. i went and bought myself something yesterday. it wasn't much just a pair of boots but i felt so guilty. i don't know why, because the kids have everything they need and some stuff they could do with out. but eveytime i buy myself something i think of something i could have got for them. hubby says i should not feel that way because i deserve stuff too. he was already a little upset because he gave me money to get my hair braided and i spent it on the kids got them some cool stuff though. i was so mad yesterday my sister called me, now she never calls me she did not even call to wish us a merry christmas, she always is with my other sister that i have disowned, but i do not judge her for that. well anyway i get this message on my cell phone from her she still did not say happy holidays or ask about the kids. all she wanted to know was could i give her 25 dollars, i was like oh hell no this b---- did not have the nerve to call me and ask me for nothing after not calling me for months. she does not even know i moved. i was so damn and i was a little because they act like i don't exist unless they need something, but no more they can kiss what i twist and i don't mean my wrist. i am so through with them. it's all good i have a new little sister anyway. aint that right hay hay. well i had to get that out cause it pissed me off but all in all i am still blessed. and god has my back everyday so i'm fine as wine. we are going to make seafood for new years( when i say we i mean hubby he's the chef in the family). but i know we will all have a ball. i am just thankful god has seen me through another year. this year has been a trip but i'm still here. i hope everyone has a wonderful new year and a safe one my blogstream family brings me so much joy. i will be praying for all of you this coming year as always. be easy people.
christmas is over. i stressed so much about it i can't believe it's gone already. the kids had a ball, and they loved all of their gifts. our oldest daughter was shocked we got her a computer, she loved it. we ate fajittas and just chilled out. i thank the lord everything worked out. jesus always makes a way for me and my family he is so awesome. my lil sis sent me a card and emailed me that made me really happy. i have to go to work tonight and you know i don't mind i thank god i have a job to go to. hubby is off for 9 days he is loving that. i know i'll get some rest this week, because he always takes care of the kids when he is home. this morning he got up and made omeletts for everybody. my daughter and i played with her cabbage patch kids. she got two of them , her godmother got her one too. i got them alot of clothes, from walmart. they have premie baby clothes and they fit cabbage patch kids perfect. so her and i had so much fun dressing them up. we had a party for one and then we put them to bed in their night clothes. i think i had more fun than she did. i might go get me one for myself . my oldest son is loving his games we got him and we also found his weight set he wanted. he is a happy camper. baby boy was so excited we got him some neat toys too , but his favorite is the batman that is almost as tall as he is. we got him some learning toys and he is having a ball. but i think me and hubby got the best present of all , seeing the smiles on our babies faces was the best thing in the world. my daughter's birthday is on new year's day so we are going to give her a sleep over that should be fun. if not we will find something nice to do. all an all this christmas was great and i thank god for allowing me to have another holiday with my family. peace and love motherless child
i just got a message from L2L and she was really pissed. to all the people who are saying bad things about hailey stop!!!!!!!!!! she's just a baby and she needs us. i feel really terrible cause i may never be able to contact her again. but i will pray for her always. and she will always be a part of my heart. i have not read the things L2L is speaking on , but i do not understand. can someone please tell me what the hell is going on. maybe i took this blog thing a little serious but that is just me. when i care about people i do not do it half ass. so if anyone can reach baby sis. tell her that she is loved always.
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because they act like i don't exist unless they need something, but no more they can kiss what i twist and i don't mean my wrist. i am so through with them. it's all good i have a new little sister anyway. aint that right hay hay. well i had to get that out cause it pissed me off but all in all i am still blessed. and god has my back everyday so i'm fine as wine. we are going to make seafood for new years( when i say we i mean hubby he's the chef in the family). but i know we will all have a ball. i am just thankful god has seen me through another year. this year has been a trip but i'm still here. i hope everyone has a wonderful new year and a safe one my blogstream family brings me so much joy. i will be praying for all of you this coming year as always. be easy people.
. my oldest son is loving his games we got him and we also found his weight set he wanted. he is a happy camper. baby boy was so excited we got him some neat toys too , but his favorite is the batman that is almost as tall as he is. we got him some learning toys and he is having a ball. but i think me and hubby got the best present of all , seeing the smiles on our babies faces was the best thing in the world. my daughter's birthday is on new year's day so we are going to give her a sleep over that should be fun. if not we will find something nice to do. all an all this christmas was great and i thank god for allowing me to have another holiday with my family. 
